||[05 Dec 2013|01:09pm]
X-mas cookie list is being made.
Any other cookies?
||[03 Dec 2013|03:04pm]
Earned a degree
wrote a published poem
had an f-cup gf
still friends with an ex,
feed the homeless,
saved someone from suicidal thoughts,
build a transformer out of Legos.
shave with a personally sharpened knife.
od on caffeine.
od on helium,
write a comic,
start a novel,
been there for someone at just the right moment.
worked for the circus,
sew a seam,
make a child happy with origami spiders,
Saved a black widow,
meet a celebrity,
Act in front of a crowd,
displace myself in time,
give Tarot readings,
write a menu,
break through to the other side,
not take drugs,
Make out for 18 hours.
try new foods,
Make new foods,
set up Cookie-pals
To be continued...
Gave a woman multiple, different kinds of orgasms,
Made a woman O off of an upper body massage.
|Inherently good or evil?
||[27 Nov 2013|01:45pm]
I was watching an episode of Community where one of the characters has to step up and join the Debate club.
The topic was Is Man inherently Good or Inherently Evil?
I understand that this is a comedy, but the setup for a Debate club was weird. Popping out points like a preacher or self-help guru, cliches, for audience applause?
Basing it on the charisma of the speaker is a logical fallacy.
My actual first response was, "Don't you first have to establish whet Good and Evil are in order to debate it?"
I've asked that here, What is Good? and What is Evil?
People have yet to answer this.
As to the absoluteness of inherency; that's a stupid question. you cannot have that as a law that applies to ALL people.
And I only say that because there will always be exceptions that prove the rule wrong.
||[26 Nov 2013|09:53am]
Whelp, 6 days down and I did the last two by myself.
Yesterday, I introduced the kitchen manager that I DO have some menu building skills.
I showed her the menu I made during one of my culinary classes, and produced a trio of crepes in the griddle-top.
potato, chorizo, onion, scramble,
big, thin tortilla, chipotle cream, avocado
with a side of Pico de Gallo.
open faced toast, Dijon mayo,
grilled ham with white cheddar,
Arugula and an over easy egg.
Iron Skillet Poached eggs:
roasted veg, tomato sauce, goat cheese,
2 poached eggs and toast.
Iron skillet pork hash:
potato, ground pork, onion,
2 over easy eggs, toast.
Do It Your own, al a carte
1 pork sausage,
We serve that from 7 to 2pm.
At 10 or 11, the lunch menu starts with a number of cold salads, hot sandwiches and pork sliders.
A lot of prep in a small kitchen.
The hours are different now, M-F: 7-8 or 9
Sat: 7-10, Sun: 7-2
I don't know....
I'm kinda liking it.
||[21 Nov 2013|04:18pm]
Ages ago, when I was hanging with the Rocky Horror Picture Show crowd, I met a number of people.
That time helped me get out of my skin and grow up a bit socially.
It helped me learn how to interact with people more than school.
I met my first Best friend there, had my first french kiss there, I found a clique of people that I could get along with.
I am still friends with a few of them and that is good.
Yet, there were a number of them there that I would never be friends with, I wasn't Rocky enough for some, or Goth enough, or slutty enough.
there are a couple that I wished I could have been better friends with, but that too, wasn't to be.
I have come to terms with that time. Grateful for the most part.
But, there was this one guy there, he was fine at first. he was always one of the main cast groupies, was always at the parties, always had young women around.
He always had a video camera rolling, and then the women became YOUNG women, or Old Girls.
Some of the group had seen his room, the basement of he mom's place, and reported that the walls were plastered with anime nudes, young elf nudes, pics of women that looked remarkedly young.
Once, back....15? years ago, there were rumors around that he was involved in a child-porn sting with another of the Rocky crowd. The other guy WAS caught and imprisoned. This guy was not.
But, because of that, and the other red-flags, I refused to associate with him.
Whenever someone invited me to a party and said thqat he would be there, I refused. They would ask why and I'd tell them. I'd get scolded for being too judgemental. I'd still refuse. I'd get asked by others why wasn't I his friend when there was so much shared Rosky history, and I'd tell them. Eventually, I was exiled from the Rocky group for having my viewpoint.
I'm sorry, but if there are rumors of someone being involved with child porn, and they show behavior that way, and act that way, I don't want to be associated with it. Ever. Seriously, he liked parading girls around on teathers, them dressed in risque anime-esque outfits. YOUNG GIRLS! (16-17?)
Well, after YEARS of this, He Finally Got Caught!!
I fucking told you people!!!
("you" being those people who snubbed me cutting him out of my sphere)
||[19 Nov 2013|02:58pm]
I got the job at the Cartel Coffee Lab in Phoenix!
It was a short and easy interview.
Why do big businesses make it so.... Not About the cooking and food?
You need a cook, I am a cook and I showed up to be the cook. What is so difficult about that?
Anyway, its a 6am shift. Fortunately, its a coffee shop so I will be supplied.
And I can get off of unemployment now.
|Little things that are pissing me off.
||[17 Nov 2013|06:47pm]
j-walkers: People around here walk against the lights constantly. They know that most people don't like to willingly plow pedestrians with cars, so they are Depending on that fact to go waltzing across the street. The police around here also don't seem to ticket anyone for it. Does that seem right to you? I have thought and said outloud a couple times, "You have the legal right to run them over. Indeed an Obligation to do so."
Rules: Unenforced rules are useless. knowing that certain rules are unenforced makes one wonder what other rules are not being enforced. Wanna know why this country is in such a state of mess? noone knows what rules are real and which are just taking up space.
The sadder thing is that this is creating a generation of people that have learned to disreguard rules at their discretion. What society can work with that?
people that think they are honest, but lie: Everyone says they are honest. You lie. At least I will say that I do lie, but that's because I'm honest. A particular example and one that is on my mind is a woman I met up with recently. She said that she was not looking for a relationship until she got her employment in order. We spend t a couple days together, made out a couple times. I told her that I was not good in relationships and better as a friend with benefits. I said this because I thought it would be inline with what she wanted.10% real: It seems to me that nothing is reallt "real" anymore. Maybe just 10% of what people say or do is actually real. By real, I mean not just fluff, not riddled with hidden agenda, not trickery, misdirection or manipulation, or just for show. Seriously, very little of the interactive world is authentic anymore.
She later said that because I "said" I wasn't good in a relationship that I wasn't interesting enough and we were just friends. But later, I hear that she got engaged and to be married on X-mas. She also said that marriage with her is for life. So.... first, she used something I said to be unchangable fact, but she isn't applying the same thing to herself. And second: Engaged and married that fast.... and for life? Unless she has the luck like winning the lottery, I don't see that ending well.
using people virtues against them: If someone is trying to help and you blast them for it and make them feel bad for it; don't expect them to try and help you or others. Behavioral training. If you kow someone won't say "no", asking them for things because you know this and putting them in a worse position because of it is Evil. Helping, compassion, generousness, caring, creativity: Don't make the person shut it off.
Everyone wants to be special: You are special. Just like everyone else. Everyone wants everyone Else to follow the rules, but they themselves want to be exceptional. "In the world of the ordinary, Shamans are exceptional. In the world of Shamans, shamans are ordinary."
Thinking that you are better than everyone else just makes you a conceited prick. Everyone else knows things that you don't.
ways to know "god": Ok, not really a rant, not a personal note. One of the women that has re-contacted me wants "god" to help her. My personal experience says that "god" does not act directly, but through coincidence and impulse direction.
If I want to know something, or if I "need divine help", I stop my internal chatter, my ego/desire/neediness and just observe and listen.
She wanted to know where "god' was, and I said he's always there. I mean that, its subtle. Like I said, "god" is not obvious. (except to consider that everything IS "god") Everything is a part of the whole, so pay attention to the pieces.
I have attuned my awareness of this sometimes that I know when I'm being directed to be that incidental chenge someone needs to put them on the path they wish.
That's why you will sometimes hear me refer to myself as God's Pawn.
|Work, kindle, Guest, coffee.
||[16 Nov 2013|10:01pm]
I got 40 hours last week with 2 11-hour days. Today, though, the acting chef just had a bug up his ass. Hated the day. Everything anyone did was wrong, he was right and the way he asks questions forces you to take responsibility.
I was trying to help with a party when the banquet organizer couldn't find a dressing, so I went and asked the chef for it. He got it, yelled at me for being too slow, and then yelled at me again when the banquet person found the missing dressing. Was that my fault?
Do you make people feel bad for trying to help? Am I likely to volunteer again?
That kindle HDX I got is only usefull when online and since I don't have home internet, I can only play games and read books that I have downloaded.
Usefull, but not worth $225 just for that. So it is getting returned.
I'll buy a iRulu for $65.
My guest stayed for a week and a half. She's a good friend, but because of complications, we didin't make out or do anything. Just company.
oh, and the Cartel Coffee Lab in Phoenix called me at 8pm to set up an interview for Monday.
Lets get a job doing something differrent.
|Work, Kindle, stuff.
||[15 Nov 2013|06:47pm]
I worked another 11 hour shift again.
At least i'll get 40 hours on this check.
But the chef said that things will slow down next week.
The Kindle fire hdx isn't what I want. and it requires internet to even access the manual.
||[07 Nov 2013|12:31pm]
Oh, and I had to get an ultrasound exam on that inflamed vein in my leg.
$125, and new meds.
arg, I need a paying job!!!
But, my blood pressure is a little lower. 138/90 instead of 140/100.
|Mom, x-mas, people
||[07 Nov 2013|12:00pm]
While mom was in Seattle, my brother's friend Shawn Kemp came in to the restaurant and signed Mom's Sonics jacket.
And, she called me to basically, buy my own present because I have an Amazon account and was online at the time a sale was going.
So I now own a Kindle Fire HDX 7".
the thing does not come with a manual as I assume they expect you to have 24/7 wifi access.
I have written to them and asked for a downloadable PDF manual.
The cuddle-buddy isn't going to work out. She's not looking for Just a friend. I'll still be friends, but the physicality is stopping.
My friend from last summer is passing through, so she's crashing at my place for a bit. I have a better connection with her anyway.
I REALLY need my own place before I have a real GF.
My room isn't big enough for both of us.
Still looking for a job, I'm taking temp work for now. It's still sporatic.
And I would like to have a fulltime job again before I have a fulltime GF. They are expensive.
|philanthropy and the Adjustment Bureau and a cuddling
||[04 Nov 2013|11:31am]
I need to ba making the money necessary so that I can be taking care of the people that need caring for.
I love it when I can be there for a person with that little something that is helpful.
I can't do that when I'm poor and in debt.
In watching The Adjustment Bureau the other day, I was pondering what the operatives were saying about how they tweak people's decisions with out overriding their free will.
It got me wondering about all the accidents, coincidences and odd occurrences that I've had or caused that have noticeably altered mine or other people's paths.
Am I being angled toward something... or away?
..or maybe, am I one of them?
I got to cuddle with a woman that I've known for a very long time on halloween. We are being very awkward with each other, so I don't know if it's going to continue. I'd like it to though.
|Questions, answers, costume.
||[30 Oct 2013|11:51am]
I watched the congressional ACA hearings today for ...three hours.
A. they kept asking her the same question over and over. Well, three questions.
"Do you know why, Specifically, the site isn't working?"
She's not a programmer, she is the project manager. HUGE difference.
"Some people are getting dropped by their insurance, but the president Promised they could keep it if they wanted. Why is that? Is the President LYING!!??" The Healthcare.gov site is a hub. The individual insurance companies add or drop people on their own, they tend to do it according to business and profits, so I see that with a big roll out of an insurance marketplace, some people become liabilities.
It shouldn't be that way, but America Is. And, sometimes the companies (like UPS) have dropped people for the exact same reasons.
Is there any clauses in the ACA that tell insurance companies and employers that they cannot do that?
Sure Obama said so, but is there legalesse in there to back it up? "Pics or it didn't happen"
Actually, most of the questions just revolved around those two ideas.
B. One thing that was highly irritating about the questions is that a bunch of the people were asking complicated questions and then emanded a Yes or No answer. (entirely republicans, btw) Whe she started to answer, they Constantly interupted her, "Yes or No!, YES OR NO!!"
I swear, there was frothing at the mouth.
Anyway, I was imagining what would happen if reporters atarted doing that exact thing to the Republicans when they are questioning them abo0ut the shutdown and ACA. Because, the Repubs had a nasty habit on not even being able to answer simple Yes/No questions with a yes or no.
C. Some of those that were asking questions clearly had the answer they wanted in mind. And they interupted her repeatedly when ever the exact words they wanted were not being said. Again, exclusively republicans.
I HATE people like that. they are not looking for an answer, they are looking for a confession. One is constructive, one is blame. One moves the party forward, the other mires it down.
Personally, when I get attacked with those kind of people, I either call them out on that or get up and leave.
Ok, I have my Halloween costume together now. I am Determined NOT to go as a chef/cook this year.
So I got me a robe, fuzzy slippers, a sleeping mask and a teddy bear.
I am going as a Just-Woke-Up guy.
Now, there are a couple variations.
With sunglasses and a bottle of whiskey, I could be Robert Downey Jr. (Or Charlie Sheen).
With a sky blue blanket, I could be Linus.
With a pipe, I could ne Hugh Hefner.
||[26 Oct 2013|03:51pm]
There's a young woman I've had a thing for for ages. I used to work with her, she must have been 19 at the time, now 22.
She behaves older than she is in most respects.
I "let her go" a number of months ago because I thought that she was happy with her new boyfriend and I didn't want to interfere.
At the end there, she was REALLY physically flirty with me and I thought it was just a natural progression if our flirtyness we had going for the whole time.Well, I was really drinking up that attention and emergy, but since I am a gentleman, I cut it off after talking to her,
Not CUT it off, I just stepped back.
I met up with her yesterday and we both filled each other in on what has been happening. It turns out that her extra flirtyness with me was in fact, because she was actually unhappy, but just hadn't aknowledged it to herself.
I still like her and hope that she still has feelings for me as well.
|thoughts and observations...
||[26 Oct 2013|03:17pm]
Has anyone else noticed the lack of police patrol cars roaming around? I haven't seen a patrol car (barring downtown Tempe) in probably 3 weeks.
I live close to a fire station and I notice less and less people pull over and get out of the way. When am emergency vwhicle is loud and flashing, are these other drivers that refuse to get out of the way just ignorant, stupid, ot aggocantly careless?
A news atricle a few days ago mentioned that emergency vehicle accidents are down over all.
Is that because there are less accidents, or because the EMV drivers are more defensive, and hence have to go slower?
Busses: over the last week while riding the buss, two other cars have cut the bus off from an inside lane to make a right turn.
Now, I know bus drivers are always in the wrong in the eyes of the bus company, and I believe a number of dickish drivers know this. And they know that the bus driver cannot DO anything about it, so I think they other drivers are just getting a kick by pulling this stunt.
Did you know that AZ (and a couple other stated) have passed Emergency Vehicle laws? And did you know that towtrucks are counted in those vehicles? Wht not include any vehicle that deals with a lot of people as well, like busses? It's just for the safety of multiple lives.
Light rail: I've mentioned a long time ago that the light rail platforms are invitations to "steal" rides, because they are open air. If the fare was paid first before entering an enclosed boarding area, everyone would have to pay before boarding. Instead, I can just walk up to anytime I feel like it.
In order combat this, the Lightrail has hired a number of security to board and check everyone on the train between stops.
Well, first, all the skippers jump shipright when they walk on and just wait 15 minutes for the next one, and thesecurity people are flat out arbitrary.
I know one woman that never pays and she gets carded all the time. She just says Oh, I have a pass but forgot to swipe it. They tell her to do it when she gets off and she say Ok and never does.
The other day, I was sitting next to a guy napping, and the security guy never asked him for his.
The inconsistency is what causes people to flaunt rules.
|Latest work and health.
||[22 Oct 2013|01:23pm]
The temp job place is finally picking up and I'm doing the Phoenix Convention Center as often as they want me.
It's still temp work though, so it is subject to the wind blowing.
A week ago, I started having a pain on the inside of my leg. A tender spot with no bruising.
It's gotten worse and has spread a bit down my leg, through the knee area.
I thought it might be something similar to the blood clotting issues that I have so I started eating the ginger and pineapple to get the blood thinning attributes.
But it has remained and is getting painful.
So I went to the Dr. today, because its dangerous to let that stuff go.
I now have some compression thigh highs, anti inflammatory pills, and...
My blood pressure is in the hypertension category. 140/100.
So I now also have some blood pressure meds.
Thank you, Dad.
For you genetic legacy.
Your gifts leave and impression.
|email and online accounts
||[16 Oct 2013|03:51pm]
in my efforts to get rid of my Yahoo email, I am also getting rid of Email.com/Mail.com. They are one in the same and had been bought by AOL.
Interestingly, a lot of the sites where I have accounts are either no longer existent or no longer recognize my account.
So I get to start over on a number of them.
This is happening about 1 in 10.
|Quote of the day:
||[16 Oct 2013|02:48pm]
"It's hard to understand Nothing,
But the multiverse is full of it."
- Terry Pratchett
To which I replied:
Actually, I understand Nothing quite well.
||[15 Oct 2013|01:25pm]
I have had enough with Yahoo.
Which is sad because I've used that as one of my main emails for 14-is years.
The last update was horrible, and it is now too annoying to use.
I'll keep the YIM for one person, but it is basically going away.
I've opened a caouple new Gmail accounts, one Professional, a.josh.griswold and one for all those displaced accounts. Speck.Santoku is my second facebook name as well.
|Bad financial news
||[15 Oct 2013|01:08pm]
I was curious aboout my financial situation, so I plugged some numbers.
Az minimum wage is presently 7.80...
X40 hrs/ week, x 52 weeks is... 16224.
Are you telling me that with me making OVER $10/hr for the last 4 years that all I've been making GROSS is between 12 and 15 thousand??!!??
And "you" want me to be happy and content?
What the Fuck ever man.
Remind me to stop being "curious".
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